new day

I haven't blogged in a long time. I just couldn't. I could barely get out of bed and function.

I realized I was defnitely depressed. This was hard to come to terms with since I had hoped the last time I was depressed was a one-time occurance not the beginning of a lifelong illness.

My doctor put me on Cymbalta, an anti-depressant. It's been 16 days on the medicine and I'm finally starting to feel better. The depression felt so crushing. My pain literally felt so "heavy." The medicine made me very nauseous for the first two weeks which was awful. I lost 5 pounds. The depression diet - it works.

I am coming out of that dark tunnel and I am so grateful. You don't know happiness until you feel extreme sadness. Actually, I don't know if I'd describe myself as "happy" yet. But I feel better and that is huge.

It's a new day.